My Saturday -Aquaria>Hosp+Having guests at home sweet home

8.30 a.m

Bangun awal,gigih menyiapkan both kids pagi2..sebab dah promise nak bwk bufday girl pegi Aquaria...Then,hubby fetched us terus ke KLCC.

Sebelum ke Aquaria,mummy tersasar dari niat sebenar..gi KLCC ternampak Harrods on sale..ngeee! tanpa pedulikan hubby yg sedang geleng kepala,terus terjah ke dlm & grab this bag sebab jatuh chenta dgn graphic cupcakes tu..

Bersemangat nak belanje bday gurl teddy bear,but she's not interested (selamat poket..huhu!)

1.00p.m- Perut msg2 pun dah start nyanyi lagu lady gaga...kami pun pegi mkn chicken teppanyaki for lunch..

After msg2 dah kenyang..terus ke Aquaria...ramai btul manusia!!pak arab,mak arab semua ader..

Suka Eva dpt tgk shark time feeding..Dua benda yg dia suke tgk kat sini,snake & shark...yg lain mcm xde feeling ape2 pun..haha!

comeykan?kan?kan?

Nampak mcm kuruskan?tp sebenarnyer x..

anak manje daddy...

Ryanz pun enjoice ^-^

eh????

sape lg comey??

Then before off to hospital,sempat lg singgah MAC beli cremesheen glass lip gloss, sebab rasa mcm dah lama x pakai lip gloss...rinduuu!OK x color nih?very natural,sesuai utk pegi keje.

time nih dah ade rasa kaki cam nak tercabut!tp berjaya pasang balik & teruskan perjalanan...

Then at 4.00p.m headed to Hosp,to take my turn utk jaga abah,bagi susu,lap2 bersihkan muka,ubatkan luka+exercise...semua settle blk fetch mama pulak di rumahnyer..ade gaya superwoman x?(ni puji sendiri utk ape?...abis pahale kauuu!)

at 8.pm -order satay for dinner..yum!yum!

sampai umah,kemas rumah laju2 sebelum guestku Zue dtg!!!hehe...(kwn nak dtg baru nak kemas yer?..harhar!)We had a nice chat (chat ker gossip?..ahaa!)

Sorry chiepani,aunty lambat kasi present,hopefully u like the pressies :) as much as eva loves the pressies from ur mommy! nanti raya jumpe lagi kayyy!

Sygnyer x sempat bergambar...sonok sgt bercerita punyer pasal...next time jumpe kita pose sampai abis battery camera ek?

Akhir kata,Arini x dan nak exercise,dgn semua activity arini rasanyer dah burn byk calories tu..cukuplah yer!

Grandparents & grandchildren relationship

hmmm...arini nak membebel psl relationship between grandparents dgn cucu2...
perasan x no matter garang mcm mane pun parents kita dulu dgn kita,tp dgn cucu derang kalah?
pastu kalau kita marah or babab anak kita depan derang,derang naik hanginn!! ataupun kecik hati..
itulah uniknyer relationship derang nih...boleh kata cucu yg dijaga oleh atuk nenek senang spoil..
contoh depan mata pun ade...ekekekekeke! aku sendiri pun nenek yg jaga...sooo sgtlah spoil!
ngada2,manje & x independant...

but if u look on the other side,bab2 kasih sygkan..cucu2 gembirakan atuk nenek,so derang xlah sunyi during retirement...have reason to laugh & stay active.atuk nenek pun gembirakan cucu2 jgk dgn melayan kerenah....sebab most of the time kita as parents xde masa,must work hard for our kids future..x dpt nak entertain our parents+ our kids on daily basis...
this is a life cycle kan?
1 day kita akan tua jgk & jadi grandparents,time tu x sabar nak ade cucu pulak...

kenape aku leh terpikir semua nih?sebab terkenang relationship between Eva & atuknyer..
now,for 35 days she doesn't hear his laughter & jokes...it really affects her life..& i have to help her deal with it...

X trainer???

Barang yg hubby order for me sudah sampai!!!!

time lorry fitness concept sampai jer dah tau ape ade di dlm..huhu! perli ke hape ni?? huwaaa!

sure psl i selalu bising tanyer soklan2 nih "i gemukkan?" "gemuk x?" pastu.."eeeei gemuknyer i skang" sure dia dah x larat nak dengar..

aku pun test x trainer nih,pic blur coz bdk genap 4 thn yg snap this pic..haha!

terus mms ke hubby...hubby replied "sure blk ni u dah kuruskan?" huihhh x agak2..

tadi naik 5 minutes pun boleh burn 10 calories jer..itupun den dah berpeloh2..

pokok pangkalnyer determination..consistentkah aku utk naik menda ni everyday?

well,good luck to me!!!

Tagged by Zue ^ _ ^

hepikah anda?

Helloooo peeps! Ni kes nak byr utang kpd Cik Zue,sorry yer terlambat sket...




a) adakah anda rasa hepi sekarang?
Happy & sad.

b) kenapa anda rasa hepi?
Happy becoz today is Eva's Bday!

(Sad becoz abah is still in the hospital..)

c) apakah yang boley membuatkan anda hepi?
Byk benda,meh sini aku list downkan,,ngeee!

1)Surprises from Mr.Husb (dia mmg pro bab2 surprise org ni..)

2)My kids laughter

3)Parties/port luck
4)Good frenz

5)warehouse/members sale

6)flea market (Esp kat subang parade & the curve)

7)chocolate cake

8)Oreo

d) pernah anda menerima tag?
Yer pernah...

e) nyatakan warna yang anda suka
Purple,black & white

f) tag seterusnya untuk -???

pasni i nak cari idea tag org lain plak..cari soklan yg pelik2..ngeh3x

kena tag by mama miq (*u*)

5 nama samaran kamu?

1) Alice@Elis

2) Baby

3) Dallies

4) Didie

5) D

5 tarikh penting dalam hidup kamu?

1)24/11

2)26/06

3)29/07

4)8/04

5)28/8

5 perkara kamu buat semalam?

1)Jaga anak

2)Masak maggie asam laksa

3)Pegi hospital

4)Pegi tesco-restock food dlm fridge(pastu mkn tanpa henti)

5)Nonton vampire diaries+desp housewives

5 perkara yang buat anda gembira?

1)Family

2)Surprises with pressies

3)Holidayyyy!

4)Shopping

5)Share price di BSKL split or naik harga

5 tempat percutian idaman kamu?

1)Paris

2)Switzerland

3)Japan

4)Aussie

5)Maldives

5 sebab kamu jawab soalan ini?

1) suke kena tag

2) Tgh free (pdhal Ryanz tgh nangis kat bwh tu..huhu!)

3) Ader mood

4) Mengisi masa lapang..

5) Boring

5 rakan lain yang di tag : (xder...)

1)???!!!

2) ^%%^$#

3) *(*(*&&^&

4)!@!#@@

5)%^$$^7

Tomorrow is her birthday..

Esok bday my 1 & only princess,Eva...it's gonna be her 4th Bday!!!

How time flies,my little bundle of joy now dah jadi big sis & soon will go to school.

However,this doesn't mean that mummy dia semakin tua...mummy is still the same yeah..haha!

(at least young at heart!)

There are some facts that she doesn't know...she was conceived exclusively on my 23rd Bday..

On the 24th Nov 2005 (wahh bocor rahsia..) on the 9th Floor at a 3 bedroom apartment,Tropicana,Damansara.How we know the date?because that's the only date that we were unprotected..huhu! (Mr.Husb mmg sharp shooter..wuakakakka!) It was an unplanned pregnancy....masa tu ingat nak honey moon setahun baru nak pregnant sebab i was sooo young..

but after 3 days lambat period i dah tau I was pregnant..even though it was unplanned syg,we were both excited to have you in our life...daddy siap jump up & down the sofa...nasib sofa tu x roboh wokeyy...

So Sorry dear,this year mummy have to postpone ur bday party,walaupun semua preparation dah ready..selagi atok is in critical condition in the hospital,i don't think it's appropriate to have a party..we love him right?so we must respect him...

but dun worry kita still boleh celebrate berempat :) kalau x celebrate langsung sure atuk will be sad,cucu kesayangan dialah katakan...in my family,bday celebration is very2 important.abah x penah x celebrate my bday..from i was 1 year old until last year,my last bday pun abah still celebrate walaupun i dah jadi mak org..sure at least ade cake & mkn2 together..

Here,Mummy nak recap blk Eva's pic since your 1st bday...

See xde rambut pun time nih,ramai ingat Eva ni baby boy walaupun pakai skirt..ekekeke!

Eva's 1st Bufday!!!

Venue :MacD Sec.3 Shah Alam

Eva's 2nd Bufday

Venue:Atok & Opah's house

theme:Purple Barney

Eva's 3rd Bufday Party!!!

Venue :Our Home Sweet Home

Theme :Fairytale Princess

Sesuatu akan sampai esok??

Hmmm...i received a phone call,something will be delivered to my house tomorrow at 1 p.m..

sesuatu yg di order oleh En.Hubby utkku...tetapi apekahhh??? rasanyer mcm boleh teka..

tapi better aku tgk dgn mata kepala sendiri,baru sah!...hubby kata kalau sehari x guna sekurang2nyer 1/2 jam,kena rotannn...sure korang boley teka kan??hihihi....

Registering the kids..

Semalam hubby blk awl,we all pegi meregisterkan nurseries for our kids..
Sedihnyer terpaksa splitkan kakak & adik,sebab Lil' Caliph x jaga baby below 2 years old...uhukk!
So my lil Ryanz will be sent to KKC,ni jer nursery yg still boleh accept baby his age.

Before pegi Lil' Caliph ni,rupenyer hubby diam2 dah study background tempat nih & check out dia punye website..It's not just a day care mcm kelip2...it's a creative Islamic English pre-school.Ade byk activity,like baby taekwando,mengaji Al-Quran,solat,doa,reading,arts & etc..
I'm sure abah will be proud tgk aku antar Eva pegi day care bercorak Islam nih..X sabar nak jumpe abah ptg ni,nak citer kat dia.. selesai meregister & byr fees,hubby kata" jom shopping brg2 kakak utk pg school!!!" wahhh semangat btul Daddy dia nih..tersengih2 jer princess dia..sukalah tu! siap shopping towel baru,baju tido,baju siang & bla..bla..bla mengalahkan nak antar anak masuk asrama..pastu..

daddy :kita kena label brg2 eva & ryanz nih..
mummy:ok gi beli sticker yg print nama tulah...
daddy :no,kita beli labelling machine yg boleh setting nama tu nak?
mummy:huh??perlu ker?...(tgk harga,gulpp...lalu daddy pun kena ceramah pendek) Syg,stakat nak label brg2 anak pun nak kena beli sampai beratus kerr? economy skang is not good you know...we must keep more than we spend!
daddy :ngeee! (terus x jadi beli..wuakakkaka!)

Actually before that aku yg kena ceramah dgn si YC time singgah opis..haha! Kat opis aku tu,org dlm dept aku semua jenis yg jimat cermat esp cha-ya-nun-alif.. kalau nampak aku pakai handbeg/kasut baru jer...siaplah kena ceramah.Tan Sri pun sama.. Nak tau tak Tan Sri & manager aku cuma pakai kasut BATA sajer gi keje wokey...harga x sampai RM60.Sebab tu kot Tan Sri boleh jadik billionaire,aku tak..sebab jimat.egegegege... Manager aku plak,kecik jer orgnyer,drive kancil jer,x pakai handphone pun..apetah lagi iphone or blackberry.tp umah 2,3 bijik harga setiap satu dkt sejuta...cash dlm bank?toksah citerlah... kdg2 aku mkn jgk nasihat derang nih...kdg2 tertewas dgn keinginan sendiri!! uikks dah ke lain dah citer aku ni....xper nasihat berguna boleh dikongsi bersama... moral of the story,mari kita berjimat cermat...sebab zaman skang kids nursery fees dah sama harga fees aku kat university dulu.
Zue:Pic me bertudung...jgn gelak taww! malu saye....

nursery

Sehari dua ni pening memikirkan patut ker aku hantar both of my kids to nursery...
aku ni mummy yg sgt2 perisau...mcm2 bermain di kepala nih...sampai x tdo mlm.
ptg smalam aku round abis area Setia Alam nih,survey nursery yg sesuai.Semua xnak accept baby below 1 year,sbb dah full....(sigh..) tp manager sorang tu mcm kesian kat aku.

Actually aku bkn plan nak antar ke nursery permenantly,sementara bibik dr medan sampai.
dlm sebulan jer...tp takut Cik Eva xleh terima new environment.

mummy:Eva nak pegi school x next week?
Eva : xnak!
mummy:ade ramai frens tau!
Eva :xnak!

erkkkk...

He was smiling..

On his 24th day in the hospital..
mata aku & mata abah staring at each other for a few minutes...tiba2 bibir abah mengukir senyuman,aku terus panggil mama suruh tgk..mama pun tersenyum...
first time abah smiled at me...masih boleh tersenyum walaupun dlm kesakitan yg teramat..

Ramai family abah x sanggup tgk keadaan abh..minum melalui tube yg disambung dr hidung terus ke perut..tube dari otak,tube pernafasan di tekak,tube air kencing...tgn & tengkuk berjarum masuk antibiotik...mmg suffering..bdn & bahunyer penuh dgn luka jarum & stitches...

kdg2 abah menangis,a silent cry..aku terus pegang kepala abah & usap2 pipinyer...
"abah lis kuat,Allah nak tingkatkan iman abah..abah kena sabar yer..hari2 kami doa utk abah,sikit lagi abh baik,kita boleh balik"..aku harap sgt aku boleh yakinkan abah..

skali skala aku sapu air zamzam di bibir abah,basahkan bibirnyer yg kering..sapu vaseline petroleum jelly supaya bibirnyer x merekah..

walaupun aku sedih,ade org yg lebih sedih dari aku...
org di sebelah katil abah,perempuan berbangsa singh...anaknyer baru berumur 24 thn,student kolej..xde ayh & anak tunggal...dialah yg jaga ibunye hari2..dah 4 bln ibunyer terlantar sakit sama mcm abah..dia ambik cuti 1 sem utk jaga ibunyer..setiap kali dia masukkan susu dlm tube ibunyer,dia akan tersandar ke dinding,dlm keadaan nangis yg cuba ditahan...hati aku yg cair melihat dia...dia kata dia xde sesiape lagi..kesian...

hari2 aku witness org meninggal kat ward abah...mcm mati tu perkara biase...
tp bagi yg menempuhnyer??

sepanjang minggu ni aku ambil unpaid leaves...jaga my kids & ulang alik ke hosp,tgk abah & hantar mknan utk mama..mama nampaknyer dah kuat semangat..sebab dpt berada di sisi abah 24 hours..

thinking of him..

It's been 22 days he's in the hospital & he had 3 surgeries..

dua kali aku sign 50/50 form utk surgery abah..kedua2 surgery di bhgn otak..

and aku jgklah yg escort abah ker OT room sampai surgery selesai...sambil menunggu,x putus2 surah Yaasin aku bacakan...

the 3rd surgery dkt trakea utk masukkan tube pernafasan,a small surgery..time nih aku suruh abg aku plak yg escort,sbb aku x sampai hati tgk abh dlm keadaan mcm tu...

hospital pulak ade outbreak,abh dijangkiti 2 kuman dkt lungs & blood...so demam on & off.

after doc bg antibiotik nampak 3,4 days ni dah x demam..

these few days abh dah sedar...tp mmg byk damage kat his brain...so many disabilities.

Everyday visit abh,bagi semangat & doa yg x putus2 utk abh..solat hajat,puasa,semua yg terdaya aku cuba...arini nampak mcm ade responds pd mata abah..

abah renung aku,aku balas dgn senyuman...supaya dia x risau,kalau dia tgk aku sedih & menangis,sure dia bertambah down.

abah renung sebab lis pakai tudung ke,bah?

sejak abh skt aku dah start pakai tudung ke hospital & office...maybe blum 100% ready nak fully bertudung but hubby said it's a good start...ramai kwn2 yg dah fully bertudung kata it;s ok,pelan..pelan...it's not easy for org yg x biasa or x penah bertudung suddenly fully bertudung..tq yer korang sebab memahami..walaupun dah masuk 3rd weeeks aku still rasa janggal.

Walaupun everyday aku pegi hospital..bila blk,aku tetap rasa mcm abh ade kat umah dia mcm biase..mcm aku x pecaya benda ni berlaku..mcm mimpi....

each time visit abah,sure aku call eva,psg loudspeaker supaya atuk boleh dgr suara dia..

nampak ade respond dari abh everytime dgr suara cucu kesayangan dia.

start esok doc kata nak transfer abh ke rehab ward..no more in ICU,which means family member boleh dtg jaga abah 24 hours..Alhamdulillah...sure abah will feel more comfortable..walaupun doc x bg harapan tinggi utk abh sembuh or survive,aku serahkan pd yg Berkuasa...sedangkan org yg koma 5 bln pun ade yg back to normal....aku yakin dgn doa,semangat & ikhtiar Insyaallah...

26th June 2010-backdated entry..

26th Of June 2010 = hubby's 32nd bday..

semuanyer dah aku plan,this year hubby nak romantic dinner at home...sebab selama ni x penah celebrate kat umah...his bday pics was never been updated to my blog or FB because this was the same date abah had his stroke...

bkn main rajin aku bercandle light dinner,tutup lampu semua..singing birthday song,right after hubby blew the candles,...i received a call...terus tinggalkan our dinner,x sempat jamah sesuap pun rushed to hospital..

Before that,mama dah call bgtau abah muntah2 teruk...so hubby & me terus ke rumah mama,time tu abh still boleh ckp lagi...

aku tanye sambil pegang kepala abah"abah rasa mcm mane?"

abah: pening,pening!

aku:abah ade salah mkn ker?

abah:takda

hubby pun terus dukung abh bwk masuk keter..mama suruh bwk gi klinik depan umah dia tu dulu...dah sejam kat situ,aku pg tgk abh mcm dah ok...doc tu dgn yakinnyer ckp,xde ape ni..boleh balik..aku pun blk skejap...time aku blk skejap nak celebrate bday hubbylah rupe2nyer dia makin teruk terus naik ambulance ke HTAR...

Bila scan,nampak ade bleeding inside his right brain...muka aku pun jd pucat lesi...doc pun start explain itu ini...aku dah agak abh kena stroke...sbb lidah dia dah patah time dia bgtau dia pening..

doc pulak kata HTAR xde facilities utk such cases,derang nak refer ke hosp sg buloh...

so aku suh hubby bwk kids blk,jam pun dah kul 11p.m..

bila ambulance gerak ke hosp sg buloh...aku dgn abg aku follow dgn kereta...mama naik ambulance.sampai sana abh was in coma....

below pic nih time ambulance sampai hosp sg buloh at 1 a.m..

Time nih,Tuhan jer yg tau mcm mane aku rasa..