Registering the kids..

Semalam hubby blk awl,we all pegi meregisterkan nurseries for our kids..
Sedihnyer terpaksa splitkan kakak & adik,sebab Lil' Caliph x jaga baby below 2 years old...uhukk!
So my lil Ryanz will be sent to KKC,ni jer nursery yg still boleh accept baby his age.

Before pegi Lil' Caliph ni,rupenyer hubby diam2 dah study background tempat nih & check out dia punye website..It's not just a day care mcm kelip2...it's a creative Islamic English pre-school.Ade byk activity,like baby taekwando,mengaji Al-Quran,solat,doa,reading,arts & etc..
I'm sure abah will be proud tgk aku antar Eva pegi day care bercorak Islam nih..X sabar nak jumpe abah ptg ni,nak citer kat dia.. selesai meregister & byr fees,hubby kata" jom shopping brg2 kakak utk pg school!!!" wahhh semangat btul Daddy dia nih..tersengih2 jer princess dia..sukalah tu! siap shopping towel baru,baju tido,baju siang & bla..bla..bla mengalahkan nak antar anak masuk asrama..pastu..

daddy :kita kena label brg2 eva & ryanz nih..
mummy:ok gi beli sticker yg print nama tulah...
daddy :no,kita beli labelling machine yg boleh setting nama tu nak?
mummy:huh??perlu ker?...(tgk harga,gulpp...lalu daddy pun kena ceramah pendek) Syg,stakat nak label brg2 anak pun nak kena beli sampai beratus kerr? economy skang is not good you know...we must keep more than we spend!
daddy :ngeee! (terus x jadi beli..wuakakkaka!)

Actually before that aku yg kena ceramah dgn si YC time singgah opis..haha! Kat opis aku tu,org dlm dept aku semua jenis yg jimat cermat esp cha-ya-nun-alif.. kalau nampak aku pakai handbeg/kasut baru jer...siaplah kena ceramah.Tan Sri pun sama.. Nak tau tak Tan Sri & manager aku cuma pakai kasut BATA sajer gi keje wokey...harga x sampai RM60.Sebab tu kot Tan Sri boleh jadik billionaire,aku tak..sebab jimat.egegegege... Manager aku plak,kecik jer orgnyer,drive kancil jer,x pakai handphone pun..apetah lagi iphone or blackberry.tp umah 2,3 bijik harga setiap satu dkt sejuta...cash dlm bank?toksah citerlah... kdg2 aku mkn jgk nasihat derang nih...kdg2 tertewas dgn keinginan sendiri!! uikks dah ke lain dah citer aku ni....xper nasihat berguna boleh dikongsi bersama... moral of the story,mari kita berjimat cermat...sebab zaman skang kids nursery fees dah sama harga fees aku kat university dulu.
Zue:Pic me bertudung...jgn gelak taww! malu saye....

nursery

Sehari dua ni pening memikirkan patut ker aku hantar both of my kids to nursery...
aku ni mummy yg sgt2 perisau...mcm2 bermain di kepala nih...sampai x tdo mlm.
ptg smalam aku round abis area Setia Alam nih,survey nursery yg sesuai.Semua xnak accept baby below 1 year,sbb dah full....(sigh..) tp manager sorang tu mcm kesian kat aku.

Actually aku bkn plan nak antar ke nursery permenantly,sementara bibik dr medan sampai.
dlm sebulan jer...tp takut Cik Eva xleh terima new environment.

mummy:Eva nak pegi school x next week?
Eva : xnak!
mummy:ade ramai frens tau!
Eva :xnak!

erkkkk...

He was smiling..

On his 24th day in the hospital..
mata aku & mata abah staring at each other for a few minutes...tiba2 bibir abah mengukir senyuman,aku terus panggil mama suruh tgk..mama pun tersenyum...
first time abah smiled at me...masih boleh tersenyum walaupun dlm kesakitan yg teramat..

Ramai family abah x sanggup tgk keadaan abh..minum melalui tube yg disambung dr hidung terus ke perut..tube dari otak,tube pernafasan di tekak,tube air kencing...tgn & tengkuk berjarum masuk antibiotik...mmg suffering..bdn & bahunyer penuh dgn luka jarum & stitches...

kdg2 abah menangis,a silent cry..aku terus pegang kepala abah & usap2 pipinyer...
"abah lis kuat,Allah nak tingkatkan iman abah..abah kena sabar yer..hari2 kami doa utk abah,sikit lagi abh baik,kita boleh balik"..aku harap sgt aku boleh yakinkan abah..

skali skala aku sapu air zamzam di bibir abah,basahkan bibirnyer yg kering..sapu vaseline petroleum jelly supaya bibirnyer x merekah..

walaupun aku sedih,ade org yg lebih sedih dari aku...
org di sebelah katil abah,perempuan berbangsa singh...anaknyer baru berumur 24 thn,student kolej..xde ayh & anak tunggal...dialah yg jaga ibunye hari2..dah 4 bln ibunyer terlantar sakit sama mcm abah..dia ambik cuti 1 sem utk jaga ibunyer..setiap kali dia masukkan susu dlm tube ibunyer,dia akan tersandar ke dinding,dlm keadaan nangis yg cuba ditahan...hati aku yg cair melihat dia...dia kata dia xde sesiape lagi..kesian...

hari2 aku witness org meninggal kat ward abah...mcm mati tu perkara biase...
tp bagi yg menempuhnyer??

sepanjang minggu ni aku ambil unpaid leaves...jaga my kids & ulang alik ke hosp,tgk abah & hantar mknan utk mama..mama nampaknyer dah kuat semangat..sebab dpt berada di sisi abah 24 hours..

thinking of him..

It's been 22 days he's in the hospital & he had 3 surgeries..

dua kali aku sign 50/50 form utk surgery abah..kedua2 surgery di bhgn otak..

and aku jgklah yg escort abah ker OT room sampai surgery selesai...sambil menunggu,x putus2 surah Yaasin aku bacakan...

the 3rd surgery dkt trakea utk masukkan tube pernafasan,a small surgery..time nih aku suruh abg aku plak yg escort,sbb aku x sampai hati tgk abh dlm keadaan mcm tu...

hospital pulak ade outbreak,abh dijangkiti 2 kuman dkt lungs & blood...so demam on & off.

after doc bg antibiotik nampak 3,4 days ni dah x demam..

these few days abh dah sedar...tp mmg byk damage kat his brain...so many disabilities.

Everyday visit abh,bagi semangat & doa yg x putus2 utk abh..solat hajat,puasa,semua yg terdaya aku cuba...arini nampak mcm ade responds pd mata abah..

abah renung aku,aku balas dgn senyuman...supaya dia x risau,kalau dia tgk aku sedih & menangis,sure dia bertambah down.

abah renung sebab lis pakai tudung ke,bah?

sejak abh skt aku dah start pakai tudung ke hospital & office...maybe blum 100% ready nak fully bertudung but hubby said it's a good start...ramai kwn2 yg dah fully bertudung kata it;s ok,pelan..pelan...it's not easy for org yg x biasa or x penah bertudung suddenly fully bertudung..tq yer korang sebab memahami..walaupun dah masuk 3rd weeeks aku still rasa janggal.

Walaupun everyday aku pegi hospital..bila blk,aku tetap rasa mcm abh ade kat umah dia mcm biase..mcm aku x pecaya benda ni berlaku..mcm mimpi....

each time visit abah,sure aku call eva,psg loudspeaker supaya atuk boleh dgr suara dia..

nampak ade respond dari abh everytime dgr suara cucu kesayangan dia.

start esok doc kata nak transfer abh ke rehab ward..no more in ICU,which means family member boleh dtg jaga abah 24 hours..Alhamdulillah...sure abah will feel more comfortable..walaupun doc x bg harapan tinggi utk abh sembuh or survive,aku serahkan pd yg Berkuasa...sedangkan org yg koma 5 bln pun ade yg back to normal....aku yakin dgn doa,semangat & ikhtiar Insyaallah...

26th June 2010-backdated entry..

26th Of June 2010 = hubby's 32nd bday..

semuanyer dah aku plan,this year hubby nak romantic dinner at home...sebab selama ni x penah celebrate kat umah...his bday pics was never been updated to my blog or FB because this was the same date abah had his stroke...

bkn main rajin aku bercandle light dinner,tutup lampu semua..singing birthday song,right after hubby blew the candles,...i received a call...terus tinggalkan our dinner,x sempat jamah sesuap pun rushed to hospital..

Before that,mama dah call bgtau abah muntah2 teruk...so hubby & me terus ke rumah mama,time tu abh still boleh ckp lagi...

aku tanye sambil pegang kepala abah"abah rasa mcm mane?"

abah: pening,pening!

aku:abah ade salah mkn ker?

abah:takda

hubby pun terus dukung abh bwk masuk keter..mama suruh bwk gi klinik depan umah dia tu dulu...dah sejam kat situ,aku pg tgk abh mcm dah ok...doc tu dgn yakinnyer ckp,xde ape ni..boleh balik..aku pun blk skejap...time aku blk skejap nak celebrate bday hubbylah rupe2nyer dia makin teruk terus naik ambulance ke HTAR...

Bila scan,nampak ade bleeding inside his right brain...muka aku pun jd pucat lesi...doc pun start explain itu ini...aku dah agak abh kena stroke...sbb lidah dia dah patah time dia bgtau dia pening..

doc pulak kata HTAR xde facilities utk such cases,derang nak refer ke hosp sg buloh...

so aku suh hubby bwk kids blk,jam pun dah kul 11p.m..

bila ambulance gerak ke hosp sg buloh...aku dgn abg aku follow dgn kereta...mama naik ambulance.sampai sana abh was in coma....

below pic nih time ambulance sampai hosp sg buloh at 1 a.m..

Time nih,Tuhan jer yg tau mcm mane aku rasa..